My mother asks me, “what do you want to do? Who do you want to be?”
I reply in distress “I don’t know…”
My mother tells me, “I know your good at sports, I know you can go a long way with it if you put your mind to it.
I reply “Yeah, I’m okay, but isn’t their other things out there to do?”
My mother tells me, “If you don’t continue on with sports, then what are you going to do? Schools not exactly working out for you, so you should think of getting a job.”
I think to myself, “What if I do get a job? What if I fail at sports? What if I become the best athlete, I can?”
Will that make my mother happy? Will that make me happy… Is that what I really want? Or do I want something else?”
I reply to my mother, “I understand what you’re saying mum, but I think I want to give other things a go that I might like, is that okay?”
My mother looks at me with a concerned expression and says, “If that’s what you want, do it, all I want is for you to be happy.”
I reply with relief, “Alright, I’m going to give it my best! Watch me.”
Sometimes listening pays off, sometimes it doesn’t. It can be hard to make a decision based on everyone else’s wants and needs and finding a decision that’s going to make everyone happy can be even harder, if not impossible!
But at the end of the day, when you’re lying on your bed and staring at the ceiling contemplating the scenarios you make up in your mind.
Who is really there? So, what do you want to do?